Release From Regret

Blogging has been such a wonderful expression for me but there are things that I want to say and an "essay" just isn't appropriate.  So, I wrote a couple of poems and I hesitated posting them here.  I guess I was afraid they were too depressing.  I changed my mind and decided to share them with you.  I'll post the second tomorrow. :)

 

Release From Regret

I hate you, or at least I want too

Why did you leave me, why do you toy with me

In my life, but only halfway

Your excuse is the phone works both ways

I’m tired and hurt, and have explained all this before

I don’t know why I waste my breath

Why is it so hard to be for me what you are for her

Am I not good enough, or do I just not need to be rescued

I need you, always have always will

But I’ve come to realize that I’ll never have you

Things will never change

And someday I hope you look back and realize what all you’ve missed

I hate that you’ll probably regret

But there’s only so much I can do

I hope you can live with the choices you’ve made

I know I can live with mine

I chose to be content with those whose love I do not question

If you someday decide to be fully a part of my life

The door is always open

But I will no longer reach out for you

I will cling to others

And be happy in their love for me

And be happy in my love for myself

Comments

[Alma Joyce]

I like it. Keep writing them

[Small Town Songbird]

Thank you! :)